was it the begining of new year?

so weired that i was not trying to watch new year's celebration.
instead i slept early..from 9pm. maybe i was awake and thinking coz i heard the sound of the fire works and people's voices. but it's true that lying bed by myself, and had very odd dream or deep thinking? dunno yet.

it's like this.
there was a girl(can be me)holding a fish inside of her hands with very small water.
yes, she got from sea while she was waking on beach side. and promised to herself sending back to the water it's from. but time went by, she was tempted to keep by her close side, eventhough she felt not enough water remained in her hands.yes you know it leaked between fingers. she even held thight and it's almost squeezed to death. she was scared of losing the very sweet fish, didn't know how to do. where was the voice from?.. anyway she could hear that letting go the fish to sea again. so she did run and with stopping tears. and watched it was swimming to go far away. and she said "bye. lovely fish." finally found herself with smile.