the clue for the soultion

what a grand title is that?
me recently, have had severe pain-it's like a total break down.(since last year autumn)and now im getting to understand the main problem. i can say disunity, not harmony(so previous writing is the sign of upgraded idea)

i was imbalanced for a while..
why? because of insufficient self confidence.
felt feared, what if i would be left behind by p***y. additionally my hormone thingy also influenced quite a lot.-hehe i can say i was out of control.
and i listened some one's stupid advice how to hold the p. so silly, so pabo.. my friend made worse plot without meeting & talking to me, coz he in Korea, well quite long distance. pushing him biological threatening. hehe.-we may from north Korea i bet.but only wish was connected firmly.anyway the pocktan(Korean) exploded at the wrong timing. one more bonus was no rational plan about the next situation!!

well..well..well.
if you like me, you already crossed the river,right?:P
but me still not actually... just having said "end..over" for soothing myself, to believe no more weak points of me.and made the p. encourage his right decision about the hopeless crazy late 20'

so i have mission!!
the very best idea for solving this and that problems forward.

what is that?

to be harmonized : not only with people, but also environment, my mind and soul, money lol, food, career, trips, past and future. all the relationships we have in this life.
with my very specific idea and information I'd love to give you help when you feel the same, isolated. see the real picture. don't be afraid by "what if-imagination".
if you keep doing fear,doubt, they just yield more.
i think the p***y was a great teacher to me i can say. coz i got what i can, how i can do with my time. gomawayo jjinja!

what? what am i saying? what am i doing forward?

yep!help others who have relationship stuff problem. i really can give how to understand girls.there must be the ways!!we need to know, otherwise the biggie problem.you know kk.baby baby...